31 5 / 2012
i’d rather look strong, not let you know what you did to me. You think i’m fine. You think i moved on forgot about everything. When in reality you’re the one that moved on and forgot everything..and i’m the one laying in my bed at night alone, thinking, thinking of how i never thought i could be hurt so bad, hurt by someone that meant so much to me. I wish i could just tell you everything. Let you know how you really made me feel, explode on you, scream, just cry and show you what i really feel like.. but the sad thing is, that will never happen. You will never know the truth.
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24 5 / 2012
Ima go ‘cause I got no
Problem with saying goodbye
Is it wrong that I’m gonna be
Having the time of my life
‘Cause deep down I know
I should cry I should scream
And get down on my knees
I should say that I need you here
But I’m gonna party tonight
‘Cause honestly I just don’t care
Honestly I just don’t care
21 5 / 2012
I’m so trapped in life. I hate these regrets that keep coming back when I open my eyes and realize how you really make me feel. I ignore when you make me feel worthless or when I feel you only want me for when you need something. I ignore when you call me names and belittle me. I ignore the fact that you don’t care. But only every now and then, I let myself realize all of the negative. And I break down hard. I hope me staying isn’t something that I’m going to regret when I’m older because you only live once… I’m not strong enough to leave because just that one small thing that makes me forget about all the bad, makes me happy for the time being. It tricks me into thinking I am something to you.. And makes me feel good. But then a few days later or a couple weeks, it’s proven wrong. Over and over. I’ll let myself suffer, as long as one day you will care for me, and I will sincerely know it.
14 5 / 2012
It feels like your main goal is to destroy what’s left of me..
Just to let you know, you are succeeding.
So congratulations..
